Lets try again

I have done endless things to help me get over the part of my life that is left un-mended.
Still sore to the touch.
Like salt on the wound I am reminded by little things.

I have gone from writing letters and not sending them, writing letters and burning them, trying to contact via e mail, telephone, myspace and facebook to get closure, and oddly enough, nothing seems to work. I am left unsettled. I need truth.

Why did I have to go from this......

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To trying to do this.....

With no explanation.



Im trying. Daily.

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