Heart of a Virgin, Mind of a Whore

I should really just give up with people. Maybe that is why my heart hurts, because it has to find its own love. I try and try and try and do my very best to do what I think is going to make people happy, even if that means its in the long run. And I feel like I get hit with a bulldozer when I see them walk, walking straight, in the right path... good..... no no wait Not there Don't think that way Thats not how is gonna be I swear on it Just hang on a little longer please!!! .............. Its over They have made up their mind. There is no use for me anymore I can go away now Thanks for the help that didn't really mean anything But there is the door. The only thing I take with me are tears. Tears for what could have been. Tears for what still can be. But also tears for what will never be. I give up.

We all know the song. "You're just too good to be true, Cant take my eyes off of you, You'd be like heaven to touch, I wanna hold you so much" In a way this song has become so evident in my life. God is too good to be true. I don't want to take my eyes off of Him. This might sound a tad wierd. But there has been so many times where there is nothing else I scream other than to have God just hold me. And even though I don't physically get held, or rocked I can feel Him. I feel His hands reach inside and hold my heart. I feel my heart get rocked, and its tears get wiped away. Its almost as if I am a babysitter, God has dropped my heart off at daycare. But vision this, I don't look after it, i let it run around and get knocked into things, put its hand on the burner, play in the mud. And then when God comes back to check on it, its hurt, crying, broken. Then I have to say to God "Im so sorry, i don't know what went wrong, Im a bad babysitter. You shou...