Heart of a Virgin, Mind of a Whore

It was appointed to you before you were conceived It was woven into your bones It was the fabric that created you Its the inspiration behind everything you do Its the piece of My heart that stays with you always Care, Kindness, Mercy It is a path with pain It is a road with confusion It is a road with suffering They will know you for your kindness They will know you for your mercy They will remember you for your compassion When it is too hard to forgive Take my heart and where it as a cloak over yours When you feel battered and too stubborn to forgive Remember the one who sent you Find strength in the Father Find shelter in My arms When forgiveness is looked as weakness Don't look to the world to confirm your strength Look to me Care is a battlefield In a world of hate Kindess is a weapon That the world does not often see But when it is used in battle It defeats hate It relinquishes hateful ambition and allows for peaceful freedom Forgiveness bre

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?? I, in many sense, am supposed to be this great Christian girl. That did most of the right things and definitely knew all the right answers. I waited 24 years to date and then I married that man. You know, such a delightful story to the rigid ears of "Christians" looking for a good story to get them off, spiritually of course. "Oh my gosh, what a love story" -If you only heard the story "What a blessing" -Indeed, there has been no hard work involved "When are you going to have cute kids?" -Here, there is my uterus, you just tell me "You and Bobby should be pastors, you are so real" -I feel hidden "I haven't seen you at church in a while" -I have life outside of church. shit. Just to preface this blog, as I usually like to preface before I am about to spew out something that will make me sound or look terrible. I am a professional makeup artist and I just flew from California