Headaches
Today was pretty good, got my car all cleaned and waxed and ready to slap a for sale sign on it. I just want to get rid of the curse.
Then I get home and have a major headache. Rude. I thought today was going to be all good. But no, i get this headache so major that its all that I can think about, it hurts so bad that it kept me from working out and enjoying things I want to do. So I took some ibuprofen which doesn't really work too well so then had to resort to Norco. I don't care if I never see norco again, i just want these headaches gone. If I no longer get headaches, i no long want norco around me. I understand its highly addictive nature and don't want it around me if it doesn't need to be.
At nights I really enjoy going outside with my cranberry juice, sitting under the stars with jojo by my side looking out for me, and smoking a cig either listening to music or talking on the phone to either chels or laurie. But I hate the smoking the cig part, its just nice to sit down and have something to help me relax. If I could find something else to replace that that made me feel good then I would totally do it. Just something to take the edge off, but maybe I should just have the edge, enjoy it and allow myself to wind down by talking to loved ones, and talking to God.
I have been going to the library and getting French on cd. I really want to be able to go to Europe to visit my sister and be able to speak French to her. Im sure she will pick it back up if I was speaking it. I think it is such a pretty language. I just hope it goes a lot better than spanish. But then again I was taking spanish cause amy was, i want to learn it but I wasn't going out of my way to dedicate my time to it. How cool would it be to be able to talk to Amy in French. I miss her a lot. I keep it bottled up pretty well, but I miss the person I always knew I could call and for the most part would answer.
Hope she is being fabulous.
Oh and I need to start getting serious about acting. I had a dream about it and I need to pursue it. Maybe that is why I am not getting makeup jobs, maybe God wants me to be done with that part of my life and be the one that is getting the makeup PUT ON!! Yea.....
Then I get home and have a major headache. Rude. I thought today was going to be all good. But no, i get this headache so major that its all that I can think about, it hurts so bad that it kept me from working out and enjoying things I want to do. So I took some ibuprofen which doesn't really work too well so then had to resort to Norco. I don't care if I never see norco again, i just want these headaches gone. If I no longer get headaches, i no long want norco around me. I understand its highly addictive nature and don't want it around me if it doesn't need to be.
At nights I really enjoy going outside with my cranberry juice, sitting under the stars with jojo by my side looking out for me, and smoking a cig either listening to music or talking on the phone to either chels or laurie. But I hate the smoking the cig part, its just nice to sit down and have something to help me relax. If I could find something else to replace that that made me feel good then I would totally do it. Just something to take the edge off, but maybe I should just have the edge, enjoy it and allow myself to wind down by talking to loved ones, and talking to God.
I have been going to the library and getting French on cd. I really want to be able to go to Europe to visit my sister and be able to speak French to her. Im sure she will pick it back up if I was speaking it. I think it is such a pretty language. I just hope it goes a lot better than spanish. But then again I was taking spanish cause amy was, i want to learn it but I wasn't going out of my way to dedicate my time to it. How cool would it be to be able to talk to Amy in French. I miss her a lot. I keep it bottled up pretty well, but I miss the person I always knew I could call and for the most part would answer.
Hope she is being fabulous.
Oh and I need to start getting serious about acting. I had a dream about it and I need to pursue it. Maybe that is why I am not getting makeup jobs, maybe God wants me to be done with that part of my life and be the one that is getting the makeup PUT ON!! Yea.....
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